sometimes i want to be a person again
The trick to being a person — as I was a couple of years ago — is to not stare at blank walls during idle hours. With sappy music to go with.
The trick is to watch something, read about it (or, even, something else), and remember.
Remembering is important. Then you get to talk about it with other human beings.
It's tempting to sob. And we must. It must never be all you do.
Fight back.
Because you need to be a person again.